Well, it's the weekend. Got hubby and all the kids home yippeee .
Need to figure something out to do....Not sure what ,would like to just be a hermit and stay in all weekend , send hubby and the kids off to do something lol
Well, went to the nursing home yesterday, my worry for now is put at bay. She isn't leaving Sunday. They candy coated it to her and they have gotten her to agree to stay for at least another 30 days. But, she still doesn't know that I am going for full gaurdianship over her. That bomb will be dropped when the court appointed investigator goes in to talk to her about it and then my phone will be ringing off the hook. Thank God for caller id . Well, I guess I will deal with it when it comes. I know I'm doing the right thing by her...she doesn't realize it yet but if I send her home she will end up dying. At least in the nursing home she is fed, given her medicine and well taken care of plus the fact she can see her grandkids everyday. It's a clean nice place as far as nursing homes go. I worked in one when I was 15 and everyday I went in there I wanted to puke from the smell and the way I saw those people being treated. Needless to say I only lasted there a few months. I wasn't ready for what I saw at the age of 15.

Well, it looks like its going to be a beautiful day outside today.
With a little bit of gentle prodding from my wonderful neighbor my 5 yr old finally took the training wheels off of her bike last night and entered the big kids world with a 2 wheeler. She's doing great and I'm so proud of her. Got a box of bandaids waiting though just in case :)

Well,gonna finish up the housework, no rest for the wicked.
Uhh ohh time for the bandaids Be back later!

Toilet Paper Roll Changing 101 :

Are you tired of no one in your home changing the toilet paper roll ?
Do you wonder if they even have a clue as to how to do it?

Well, this is the class for them..... Sign your relatives and loved ones up now!
We will show them and explain to them in great detail that when you see a brown roll it means time for a new roll.
We will not only demonstrate but let them have hands on experience and lots of practice at changing rolls.
Hurry fast class should fill quickly!!

Brought to you by a aggravated mom and wife who just knows she isn't the only one who knows how to do this in a house of 8!!!!

Well, gonna take the bull by his horns and get through this day . Going to the nursing home to meet with the social worker and see how we are going to tell my mother the news that she can't go home. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous but what has to be done has to be done, no getting around it. I'm sure I will have more to post on that later.

I let my 11 year old stay home from school yesterday, she hasn't liked her teacher all year, one of those ones that have favorites and don't care if the other kids know type. I think that is very wrong. A teacher should treat all kids the same in their class. My daughter isn't a trouble maker, far from it. She has always been a straight A student, untill this year, and now we have seen B's in there too. I think she hasn't been trying as hard as she usually did in the past becuase of the teacher. Hopefully next year she can get back on track. But anyways, she got a day off and then go figure she wasn't feeling too good this morning but still had to go. Isn't that how it always works out. You call into work or off of school sick and darned if you don't get sick the next day lol .
My oldest who is 19 and will be graduating at the end of May better hope she doesn't get sick anymore this year, she is only allowed to miss 8 days per semester or she won't graduate. Well she is at her limit. Taking days off for no reason. I told her she shouldn't have done that especially now being pregnant. But you can't ever tell a teenager anything. I keep forgetting I'm just a mom and I know Nothinggg about the real world lol . Her time will be here soon to be a mother and be told how much she doesn't now......I can't wait lol !!
My 17 yr old and 16 yr old have been trying my nerves a lot here lately. We found out quite a few monthes ago that my 16 yr old son smokes cigerettes. Now, it's hard for me to preach to him about this seeing as how hubby and I both smoke, but I did try the we are of legal age to do this and you are not. I wish you would have chose smarter then we have for your health. Hasn't worked so I banned him from sneaking and smoking upstairs to try and save my house from getting caught on fire. He now goes outside. What else can I do ??? You forbid something , they want it all the more.
My 17 yr old daughter has always gave me problems with lying and sneaking around. I had to put her on birth control at the age of 15. She is usually grounded more so then not and everytime I let her off being grounded and let her go and do something she screws me everyyytime. This last time I let her go stay the night with a friend on Saturday night. I always get a funny feeling letting her go stay somewhere cause I know something is going to happen, but stupid me let her go. I thought she said I needed to pick her up for work Sunday morning so off I went to the girl's house to get her and lo and behold she wasn't there. Supposedly she stayed the night with another girl, one whom she knows I don't approve of. Well, I went home called that girl's house and asked to speak with my daughter. She said she wasn't there, I said bull crap I already know she stayed there last night put her on the phone. She swore up and down she wasn't there. So a few minutes later my daughter calls me from the first girl's house acting like nothing was wrong ?!?!?! Now I never call my children names, but I was soooo mad at this point I told her what a little lying witch she was in not so many not so nice words. Went to get her she comes to the door with a smug grin on her face and when she walked out the door , yes, I smacked her right up side the head. I'm not one that spanks my children often , never have. But this time I felt it was neccessary. I'm not sorry I did it. Actually I think it was needed and add into the fact that I finally found out the next day she had stayed the night at some guy's house , drunk!! I was very glad to know that she had a bad hangover when I smacked her that day. Drinking is something I DO NOT condone whatsoever. This stemming from growing up with an alcoholic. My husband and I are lucky if we drink twice a year and not until we are sloppy drunk either. If you want to drink and you are an adult fine, but I will not have my teenagers doing it. I grounded her for 6 months. Too harsh ? I don't care. At least I know where she will be and what she's doing.
Well, that's another look into my nutty life ...time to get started on the housework.

Well, the attorney's office called me today and had me come in to sign paperwork. The judge is issuing temporary emergency gaurdianship to me of my mother. Yes, another hurdle I have jumped over, but the next, to me, is the biggest of them yet. I must go in and break the news to her that her ever so anticipated day is not going to happen. I must go and pick up the paperwork in the morning and go to the nursing home to speak with the social worker who will help me break the news. I wish I could wake up and it would all be done and over. Better yet I wish I were an ostrich and could just stick my head in the sand. I try to do right , mind my own business, raise my kids, and yet life keeps throwing curves my way. Well, nervous as I am bring it on, I am a strong person down deep inside. At least I think I am.

As I sit here , taking a break from housework, my stomach is in knots waiting for the call. The call from the attorneys office saying come sign the papers the judge is granting you emrgency gaurdianship for her.
The her is my mother.
I never expected, as I assume most don't, having to become the "parent" of a parent.
It happened in November when I got the call from her saying "Pete died today,on Thanksgiving" Pete had been her boyfriend and confidant for the last 6 years. She leaned on him and he did on her, they helped each other through the senior years. Then as quick as a snap of a finger God took him from this life.
She went into a deep depression and all she wanted to do was lay in bed and drink. Some knowledge about my mother would help here I suppose, she has been an alcoholic for my whole 36 years. She was never the mother I needed growing up, we weren't close as mother and daughter should be. I am also adopted and feel that she had and still does hold resentment against me because I wasn't her blood child. She did have her own not quite a year after they got me, but he was premature and died 3 days later...due to the alcoholism.
Three weeks later after his passing and her not taking her meds and not being able to walk anymore I got her to finally give in to going to the hospital to be evaluated and from there she has went to a nursing home. Now some 4 1/2 months later, she is expecting to go home on Sunday. The doctor has said he doesn't feel she is mentally or physically capable to go home which I concur with. To me letting her go home is to send her to her death. She lives an hour away from me and I can't be there everyday for her. Now she is less then 5 minutes from me at the nursing home and I have seen more of her over the past few monthes then I have in the last 5 years.
She is not going to like it one little bit , if all goes right, being told she can't go home. Who would? To me that is like saying o.k sorry but all your freedom is being taken away , you have no say so anymore, your stuck here.
But how can I make her see it is only out of concern for her that am trying to do this. Not trying to be mean to her,though I have many reasons not to even associate with this woman, she is still my mother none the less.
I have been praying with all the faith I have for God to lead the way, to show me what needs to be done. But the stress I feel is overwhelming me. I have had anxiety attacks more so in the past few months then I have ever had in my entire life. One day at a time I keep telling myself worry about today not tomorrow , easier said then done!