Hey everyone! Hope all you moms and grandmas had a great Mother's Day yesterday! Mine went pretty good. We had actually celebrated it more so the night before with my Dad and all the our kids meeting up at a pizza place for a get together. We had a good time and the kids brought me Mother's Day presents which I was very surprised about.

Then came Monday and back to the daily grind.

I just went out and got the mail and there was a letter from our good old government ( much sarcasam used when I say good)
It had to do with our Stimulus payment and how much we could expect to receive. Well go figure, everything they had been telling us from the beginning about the amounts we could expect have somehow along the line changed and we will be getting $600 less then what we expected. Now mind you, I'm very grateful to be getting any, but, when you tell a poor person we are giving you free money, they tend to start counting on it and looking ahead to what they can pay with it. My husband got hurt at work and we have an ongoing fight right now with the Bureau of Worker's Compensation, so because of his injury he has missed some work and we have fallen behind. Always something that happens when we think we are on the right track.
So now I will have to decide who is going to get what and who will have to continue to wait. Could the government ever do anything they say they are going to without all the if's and's and but's and oh wait that doesn't apply to you sort of things.
From what I can gather on their reasoning of us getting less then to be expected, we are too poor to be able to get the full refund we orignally thought we would get. GO FIGURE!

On a good note though today, I went and visited and old neighbor and a very good friend of mine, you all know her as River Rat on here. When we moved she went and rescued some of my plants and flowers from our old house and planted them at hers to save them for when I was ready to replant them. So today I stopped by to visit with her and she went out with her shovel and got some of my plants plus some of her own starters for me!!! The weather has been so cold and rainy I can't wait to get out tomorrow and replant everything. She's the best!

Well, hope ya'll have a good week , it can only get better from here!

Well, I was going to do an early Mother's Day post but some things arose this morning and I needed to vent instead.

One good thing about the stream, I can talk about anything under, or even over, the sun and no one will judge me.....well o.k. some things are judged here but oh well! You will have that no matter who you are, where you go, or what you do. Can't make everyone happy all the time so I don't even try anymore.

Anyways, hubby goes out to check the mail this morning, something he rarely does, and comes in with a doctor bill and wants to know why is he getting a doctor bill in his name. I said Oh, that's mine from when I had to get an ultrasound down on my gall bladder. (Been having problems with it for over a year) He started getting attitude in his voice wanting to know WHY is it in HIS name, it isn't his bill. I said but I'm your wife, we have no insurance, and you are the one with the job so therefore responsible for my bill I guess. You would have thought I just told him he was responsible for the national debt!!!
To me, and just my opinion, that was really rude and uncaring of him to act like that. We have been together for going on 22 years, we have been through ups and downs, good and bad, and my God!!! He has a doctor bill in HIS name, how dare they! Shouldn't a husband , knowing his wife is having health problems, maybe at least worded it a little different and just complained of how WE have another bill of some sort. Not stress on the fact it's my bill NOT his.
Maybe I am just having an over emotional day, wouldn't be the first.
Now, we have a good marriage I think, he isn't the most romantic guy in the world, but he does work, and on occasion do things around the house, he doesn't beat me or mentally abuse me, he is good with the kids, etc, etc. So this reaction just really threw me off guard I guess.
O.k, all vented lol I guess some good came out of this because I was so mad I went in the kitchen and cleaned it from top to bottom, I mean like a good wash down everything, clean out the cabinets, dust all the knick knacks type of cleaning. I feel a little better now lol . One room down on the spring cleaning many more to go.

Shhhh, don't anyone ever tell him all he has to do is piss me off and the cleaning monster comes out in me!!!


Well, hope you all have a great weekend and I hope all you moms and grandma's have a great Mother's Day tomorrow!!!!

Well, I went looking through everyone's blogs on my list of blogs I like yesterday and this morning and all I can is say is DANG! How many had been deactivated!! This really threw me for a loop on some of them because they had been here before I ever joined and I didn't think they would ever Not be here.
There are some of course that are still here and I have been making my way around and trying to comment here and there. I feel so bad for not doing this all along. But sometimes life just gets in the way and there isn't anything you can do about it. I think I need to start branching out and checking out some of the "newer ones" that I have missed that started while I was away.
I was jumping through mine and reading back some more on things I posted, and darn it if I didn't get teary eyed. I was reading where my son started 3 year old preschool, and was thinking wow! here in a few months he will be starting Kindergarten.
I hope to get caught up some more today and weed through who is here and who isn't anymore. It's a yucky, dreary, rainy day and seems to be the perfect thing to do!!!
I have missed ya'll !!!!!

I have been looking back through some of my earlier entries here, 2 YEARS AGO!!, when I first started my blog here. All I can think to myself is, My God, how things change and happen over the years and how time passes by and it feels like days not years until you stop and look back at something like this.
When I first started my youngest boy was 3. How much he has changed and "grown up"! My oldest daughter was 19 and pregnant and I was talking about how she was soon to find out what it's like to be a mother and deal with all the challenges that go along with that.
I had 8 people at home, I am now down to 5. My 3 oldest ones have either moved out on their own, or in the case of my oldest boy, was thrown out against his will.
He turned 18 in March, but apparently back in December 2007, he turned 30 without us knowing. His dad was disciplining his 2 youngest siblings and for some reason he felt the need to step in and put in his 2 cents worth. My husband told him to shut-up it didn't concern him and he started mouthing back that his dad wasn't going to tell him to shut-up. Next thing you know he's stepping up to his dad and pushing him and in the next instant they are rolling around on the floor and his dad has in him a choke hold. I called his oldest sister and had her come and pick her brother up and get him out of here for about a week, then because he is my son and my responsibility I gave him the decision of either coming back home and straightening up, or was I going to have to go to the juvenile courts and have something done. (Before this he had cut the lock we had on his dirt bike and took off, then at 1:00am that morning he was chased down by the town police and only stopped after they had to draw their guns on him.) So, there was history before this incident with him testing his man-hood per se. He said he would come back home because he had no other choice. I told him you Always have a choice. He just apparently didn't care for the other choice. I told him he was to apologize to his father for going at him, he never did. Things were tense for the next 3 months at our house. He would not help out with any chores and his famous line became, when asked to do something, "Why? How is it going to benefit me?" He was told that since he felt the need to be such an adult, when he was 18 he would be moving out. He was failing all his classes in school and had been for a couple of years. He was sleeping in classes, mouthing off and swearing to his teachers, we just didn't know what to do anymore. So, a week after he turned 18 my second oldest daughter came down and picked him up to go live with her.
So now I'm down to my 13 yr old daughter, my 7 yr old daughter, and my 5 yr old son at home. How things change in 2 years!
My oldest daughter said the most wonderful thing to me one day, after having her son and dealing with a child of her own and being out in the "real" world, "Mom, I understand now. I see why you did the things you did with us, I understand now that you were right about a lot of things and it isn't easy being a mom."
I am still waiting for my next oldest daughter who just turned 19 to realize mom did know a thing or 2 about life lol . The day will eventually come I'm sure.
I may be waiting awhile on my son to come to that conclusion as he is still thinking life is one big party.
I pray everyday for God to keep an eye on my children and help lead them the right way on the path of life.
My mother , who back in the beginning of my blog hadn't been in the nursing home for too long yet, is still in the nursing home. She still doesn't understand that I am her guardian, that she is never going back to her home. She still says every now and then "I can't wait to get out of here and back home." She doesn't have a home anymore to go to. We had to sell her home to pay for her stay in the nursing home. She has no clue. I don't get along with her still to this day. She only sees me as her delivery person when she wants something. I guess that will never change. I was never her "real" daughter in her eyes. A lot of things have come out in the open between my dad and I about my being adopted though since this has all started with her. I still have no answers as to who I am or where I came from, but we did have a good talk and I understand, somewhat, why I was never told about being adopted from the start. Something that he was against the whole way, but felt he had to do to keep peace with my mother, his wife.
We are all settled into our house now, and it still feels like a dream that we are living here. Sometimes I just stand outside and look around and think "Is this really mine?" I have always had the dream to live out in the country. It gives me such a peaceful feeling and I feel so close to God out here. It's so amazing to me how big the sky can be out here, how small I feel in this vast place. I am at a loss for words really on how to describe the feelings I get deep, down inside but it is just an awesome feeling to me.
Well, I need to get my daughter ready for school so I will be back later to go on and on and on lol about how much things have changed for me in the last 2 years.

Geez, a LOT has happened since my last post......hummmm 2 of the biggest things would be my one and only grandbaby turned one this past Saturday, Ohhh how the year flew by, and the second thing would be that we moved!!! Yay!!! I would post pictures of the new house and my grandson but my daughter put a virus on my computer and I don't have anything on my laptop yet to do all that. Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!
We moved out into the country into a house that's as close to our dream home as we will ever be able to come. It is more then twice the size of the house we were living in, Thank God!!!!! I was so tired of living in a shoebox for a little over 10 years. We finally have room to breathe and move around without being up each other's butts.
It's so awesome to drive down the road and see all the wildlife and hear the peacefulness. We are lucky if 3 cars go down our gravel road a day. I love it!!!!!!!

Well, hope everyone is doing well and staying healthy and safe!